My 30th birthday hit me across the face like a ton of bricks. It came as a surprise because I don’t view aging like some do. I embrace the grey hairs and don’t believe that getting older equates to getting physically weaker. I always aspired to be fitter, stronger, happier and healthier as I aged. I wasn’t worried about leaving my 20s and moving into my 30s.
Ha, was I wrong! This was the year my physical health started spiralling downhill. After being tested for lupus and a few other diseases, I landed with a diagnoses of fibromyalgia, then endometriosis popped up, and through it all I was having heart palpitations with anxiety triggers creeping out from all corners of life. I had more days of chronic pain than days of feeling okay and more days spent in fear than in love.
When I look back, I can say that I am grateful for all of those experiences. I am grateful for the emotional turmoil that triggered the physical manifestations of chronic stress. I have learned so much since then. I feel stronger and healthier, I spend more days in love than in fear. I believe it’ll just keep getting better as long as I stick to my game plan and embrace opportunities to grow. Growth isn’t always comfy, it’s actually almost always scary and uncomfy for me, but the other side of a soul growth spurt is always fan-fuh-king-tastic!
After working through a few years of healing my mind and body, I started feeling an itch. A strong itch to start crossing things off of my bucket list, an itch for adventure, an itch to find my purpose and actually live it! My 30s brought me some challenges and some great opportunities. One of these opportunities was this great job I currently have now. I want to share with you just how I believe this job came to be.
The job I didn’t know I wanted…
At around 33 years old I shifted from a focus on fixing me to a focus on sharing what I’ve learned with others. The itch was stronger than ever at 33. I’ve heard a few stories of people going through this phenomenon often referred to as the Jesus year. I don’t subscribe to a particular religion but can 100% resonate with the feeling of the stalled-life crisis. For me, there was a sense of urgency to move away from the daily grind towards a more purpose-filled life.
With this, I was wanting to move away from the job I had at the time. I loved the people I worked with and I felt secure with a steady pay and great benefits. I would be smart to hang on to this full-time job until retirement. My brain was telling me to stay but my heart was telling me to move on. I had no idea what that was going to mean for me but I knew I had to try to figure it out. I started following my interests and took a course in integrative nutrition, I started learning about essential oils, and deep diving into spiritual books.
Since I was a child I was learning about how to manifest through my dad, books i’ve read, friends i’ve connected with, online personalities and by experimenting myself. If I was to move away from the safety and security of my current job, I wanted to feel like I was moving towards something that would offer me a sense of safety and security but with more freedom. It was tough for me to believe that I could attain something so quickly so I turned to a tool I had used in the past to manifest something big in my life…
A letter to the universe
I like to use the term universe here because it seems to resonate with most. You can insert whichever higher power you believe in (God, spirit, higher power, angels, etc.). I wrote a letter to the universe. I was sure to keep it vague enough that I could believe in my request. The key to manifesting your desires is with your feelings and beliefs. If you doubt it and feel unworthy, it might not work out for you as quickly as you hope.
I decided to write down a typical weekday and what I would love to be doing with my time each day, right from the moment of waking until the moment my head hit the pillow before falling asleep. My letter looked somewhat like this:
I would love my typical day to look like this:
- wake up and do morning routine
- walk my dog
- leisurely make & eat breakfast
- get ready for the day
- bring kids to school
- start work
- take intentional work breaks
- have time to make nutritious lunch and eat with intention
- pick kids up from school
- have time to make a nutritious dinner
- spend quality time with my family
- include self-love into my day (yoga/meditation/journaling)
I want my days to be filled with love and intention and I want to be living my purpose right now. I am grateful for the opportunities that are now coming my way to help make this happen.
We often say we want something different but we rarely spell it out or even know what it is that we want. Writing it down gives you something to work with, something to visualize, and something to feel in to. As I wrote and read each point in my letter, I was feeling the feelings of waking up excited for the day, not stressing about how my kids will get to school, not rushing through the time I have with my family, the feeling of being in the kitchen preparing healthy meals, and the feeling of just living life with intention.
I felt a shift immediately and was able to find things in my current moments that I could see where I would be able to feel those feelings I was longing for. Stay grateful for the moments you have now and your dreams will come faster. I was grateful for the opportunities I had up until that moment, for the forever friends I made at work, for the connections I had made with others that ended up indirectly helping me in ways that I can’t thank them enough for. I was grateful that this job had helped build my confidence and personal power and put food on my table and kept the lights on.
The true magic happened when I saw a job posting twice. It had to come through my inbox a second time before it clicked. This was something I needed to pursue and see what happened if I applied. Sure enough, after moving through the interview process, I got the job offer and accepted! Before accepting I exercised my personal power muscle and negotiated the salary. This is something I have never done before but I knew I wanted to move into this new part of my life knowing I started off on a confident foot (even if it felt fake at the time).
I didn’t really make the connection until a few months into my new job. This was the answer to my letter to the universe! I couldn’t think of a traditional job that would offer the flexibility that I was looking for so my mind thought I would need to be an entrepreneur before I could attain this. I work remotely (mainly from home) and my boss is amazing! I am able to shift my hours around so I can do all of things I need and want to do. I can drive my kids to and from school, cutting out daycare costs and increasing the time I get to spend with them. I can use my breaks to catch up on housework, do a yoga session, or have a tea with my mom. My days are more intentional now and I can now use my vacation days to actually take vacation!
If this idea is new to you but it peaks your interest, give it a try! Start small if you have doubts but the important part of manifesting is to feel the feelings as if it has already come true. I would love to hear what you were able to manifest so leave a comment or send me a message.